Sometimes I get frustrated that I can't seem to speak words as easily as I can write them. But, I'm a writer, and most writers will tell you that we don't really know what we think until we write it. So this is exactly that. Rachel, 8 years. Wow. Where on earth has that time gone? Seems like only yesterday we were skipping out on studying for finals to go get milkshakes at The Beanery, or standing closer than we should've to the speakers at punk rock shows. In many ways, you are still that amazing girl that fell head over heels in love with a decade ago, but in so many ways, you're so much more.
I love you more now than I ever have before. Not a day goes by that I'm not in awe of the person that you are. The wife that you are, and the mother that you've become. It is the greatest honor of my life to watch you mother our two beautiful daughters. You will never know what I see in you, mostly because I'm horrible at articulating it, but let me assure you, what I see is Jesus.
I see Jesus in the way you sacrifice for your girls, give yourself to them, discipline them, encourage them, love them, and absolutely light up when you talk about them in public. Our girls may not grow up with all the material possessions that they'll ever want, but one thing they'll never lack is their mother's love, and that is worth more than anything we could ever buy for them.
I see Jesus in the way you work. Life isn't always fair or easy, and certainly hasn't always been for us. The way you give yourself 100% to your work, being the absolute best preschool teacher you can possibly be, then come home and be the best mom I could imagine, is nothing short of a testimony to Jesus' love and grace. You put your all into everything you do, and it is obvious to every single person around you.
I see Jesus in the way you put up with me. I'm not trying to be self deprecating, but let's be honest, I can be a real piece of work sometimes. I'm moody, flaky, sometimes unreliable, and you love me through it all. Our marriage hasn't been a complete cake-walk. There were times when you could've thrown in the towel and retreated, but you stuck with me, and that is a debt I will never be able to repay. You're the reason that I love my girls so well, you're the reason I love Jesus like I do, and you're the reason that I write. You're my best friend, and my biggest fan.
The last 8 years have flown by. I know 8 years isn't that many in the grand scheme of things. I know that we hopefully have 50 more years of this. It isn't always easy, but it is always good. I love you so much Rachel. Thanks for taking a chance on me. I'll spend the rest of my life trying to show you just how much you mean to me.
"Take my notions and words to heart, this is the cry of a man. I can't bring you fortune or noble life, but I'll love you all I can." -Needtobreathe
I love you more than you will ever understand.